Sunday, October 2, 2011
what the hell
Will update on what's been going on soon...
Right now I need to rant! UGH.
Mentioned it casually and accidentally, but you manage to make a big fuss out of it, making me feel guilty. Sigh, what am I supposed to do. What do you want me to do now? I've comforted you time and time again. But sometimes, its just, you talk too much about your own insecurities. It worries me but at the same time, I don't understand why you would want to show your vulnerable side on the world wide web. It almost seems like you're just craving for the attention. Not tryna be mean or whatever, but the way you talk about your flaws, it just seems a little excessive. I sound like such a bitch for not caring sometimes, but honestly, it sounds a little bit scripted and untrue. Like, its just a way for you to get noticed and pitied. And to add on, why do you want to be known as the "pity case". Its like, you expect people to give you the chance because they pity you? C'mon, fight for it, prove it. I always hear you say that. But when the time comes and you don't deliver, I hear you make excuses about it. Why? Weren't you the one who said we shouldn't be giving excuses? I keep hearing the words, "pain" or "chance" or "opportunity" or whatever. It's not like we don't go through the pain. Okay I get it that you have alot of medical problems. (OMG I SOUND LIKE SUCH A BITCH HATE MYSELF UGH) But... it's not like we don't suffer or go through the same muscle pains? I don't get it, if I were you and the pain bothers me THAT much. I would just quit. I always see you talking about the pain you go through, I guess trying to make yourself sound strong and someone who doesn't give up. But if I were you, if I was that headstrong, I wouldn't mention a word about it. It's like, I'd rather be proud of myself for going through with the pain. Why do you have to broadcast it to the world? To get a pat on the shoulder for your endurance? I guess it goes to show that you need the attention of others to get rid of your insecurities? It gets frustrating sometimes. Because I always feel bad about it. IDK why. You rant so much on twitter and no one seems to care. So i'm the one always doing the comforting. But at times, you turn my words against me and i'm stunned. Like okay, I try to comfort you but then you say that I give you false hope? I was only trying to be nice. I won't tell you to quit or give up right. Everytime, I tell you to be strong and carry on. But you make use of the words and say some shit about me telling comforting lies? I don't get it. Why do you do this? It's not like i'm spiting you on purpose. Sigh, right now, I don't know what to do...
Right now I need to rant! UGH.
Mentioned it casually and accidentally, but you manage to make a big fuss out of it, making me feel guilty. Sigh, what am I supposed to do. What do you want me to do now? I've comforted you time and time again. But sometimes, its just, you talk too much about your own insecurities. It worries me but at the same time, I don't understand why you would want to show your vulnerable side on the world wide web. It almost seems like you're just craving for the attention. Not tryna be mean or whatever, but the way you talk about your flaws, it just seems a little excessive. I sound like such a bitch for not caring sometimes, but honestly, it sounds a little bit scripted and untrue. Like, its just a way for you to get noticed and pitied. And to add on, why do you want to be known as the "pity case". Its like, you expect people to give you the chance because they pity you? C'mon, fight for it, prove it. I always hear you say that. But when the time comes and you don't deliver, I hear you make excuses about it. Why? Weren't you the one who said we shouldn't be giving excuses? I keep hearing the words, "pain" or "chance" or "opportunity" or whatever. It's not like we don't go through the pain. Okay I get it that you have alot of medical problems. (OMG I SOUND LIKE SUCH A BITCH HATE MYSELF UGH) But... it's not like we don't suffer or go through the same muscle pains? I don't get it, if I were you and the pain bothers me THAT much. I would just quit. I always see you talking about the pain you go through, I guess trying to make yourself sound strong and someone who doesn't give up. But if I were you, if I was that headstrong, I wouldn't mention a word about it. It's like, I'd rather be proud of myself for going through with the pain. Why do you have to broadcast it to the world? To get a pat on the shoulder for your endurance? I guess it goes to show that you need the attention of others to get rid of your insecurities? It gets frustrating sometimes. Because I always feel bad about it. IDK why. You rant so much on twitter and no one seems to care. So i'm the one always doing the comforting. But at times, you turn my words against me and i'm stunned. Like okay, I try to comfort you but then you say that I give you false hope? I was only trying to be nice. I won't tell you to quit or give up right. Everytime, I tell you to be strong and carry on. But you make use of the words and say some shit about me telling comforting lies? I don't get it. Why do you do this? It's not like i'm spiting you on purpose. Sigh, right now, I don't know what to do...
Saturday, August 27, 2011
we'll be a dream.
WANTED TO BLOG PICTURES BUT MY HARD DRIVE IS NOT PLUGGED IN...
-SOBZ-
(this blog so boring...)
Hari Raya is coming!~
3 more days to be exact.
& it means 3 more days of fasting before I can feast on anything at anytime. ;)
Teehee gosh I swear I'm suchhhhh a glutton.
But fasting month really teaches you how to be thankful for the food and drinks that we have.
Because hunger and thirst definitely ain't a good feeling.
So everytime you tuck into a big plate of chicken rice or take a gulp of that refreshing ice lemon tea, think of all those people who do not have that luxury, pray for their well-being, and thank god you were blessed with the things you have in your life. :) #notetoself
Haha okay aside from that, this month has also been all about EXAMS.
Sigh, the word everyone hates, the time everyone dreads.
Because for a whole month, we literally give up our lives to do one thing: STUDY.
"I had a big plate of study for breakfast, lunch and dinner" #sadlife
On monday, the 23rd to be exact, I had MATHEMATICS A.
Despite ATTEMPTING to study and revise, the paper was a killer.
Couldn't find the answers for most of the questions, and this fickle thing called TIME wasn't on my side.
Felt so depressed after the paper. HAIZZZZZZZZZ.
Today, the 26th, I had ANALYTICAL AND PHYSICAL CHEMISTRY.
Calculations all the way.
Gosh another killer paper, despite ATTEMPTING to study(and I swear I put more effort into this subject)
And time was another factor!!
#majorlypissedoff because I couldn't finish all the darn questions.
Frustrating!!!!!!!
Okay, so I guess its probably because i'm extremely meticulous when it comes to workings, but like what the blehhhhhhhhh how to speed up calculations!!
It's not like I can speed up doing the calculations on the calculator.
What if I key in wrongly and then my whole question is wrong because of one STUPID and CARELESS mistake. #cui
SO IDK HOW...
GAH.
Gotta find a way...
After today's paper, I was thinking, Oh man that's it, goodbye gpa > 3.5. See you next time...
Depressing and demoralizing!!!!
On monday, I have BIOCHEMISTRY and wednesday, MICROBIOLOGY.
Sigh, and Hari Raya's on TUESDAY.
TELL ME HOW TO STUDY HUH HUH HUH?!
why...
-end of exam rant-
it's 2.50am now.
Haha what on earth.
I just ranted about how i'm struggling with my exams when...
I just wasted a total of 3 hours playing the sims social on facebook, tweeting, tumblring and blogging.
Hate how much I contradict myself sometimes.
Oh well...
Old habits die hard.
Goodnight!
(LOL siao ding dong I just blogged goodnight to myself wahaha #fail)
3 more days to be exact.
& it means 3 more days of fasting before I can feast on anything at anytime. ;)
Teehee gosh I swear I'm suchhhhh a glutton.
But fasting month really teaches you how to be thankful for the food and drinks that we have.
Because hunger and thirst definitely ain't a good feeling.
So everytime you tuck into a big plate of chicken rice or take a gulp of that refreshing ice lemon tea, think of all those people who do not have that luxury, pray for their well-being, and thank god you were blessed with the things you have in your life. :) #notetoself
Haha okay aside from that, this month has also been all about EXAMS.
Sigh, the word everyone hates, the time everyone dreads.
Because for a whole month, we literally give up our lives to do one thing: STUDY.
"I had a big plate of study for breakfast, lunch and dinner" #sadlife
On monday, the 23rd to be exact, I had MATHEMATICS A.
Despite ATTEMPTING to study and revise, the paper was a killer.
Couldn't find the answers for most of the questions, and this fickle thing called TIME wasn't on my side.
Felt so depressed after the paper. HAIZZZZZZZZZ.
Today, the 26th, I had ANALYTICAL AND PHYSICAL CHEMISTRY.
Calculations all the way.
Gosh another killer paper, despite ATTEMPTING to study(and I swear I put more effort into this subject)
And time was another factor!!
#majorlypissedoff because I couldn't finish all the darn questions.
Frustrating!!!!!!!
Okay, so I guess its probably because i'm extremely meticulous when it comes to workings, but like what the blehhhhhhhhh how to speed up calculations!!
It's not like I can speed up doing the calculations on the calculator.
What if I key in wrongly and then my whole question is wrong because of one STUPID and CARELESS mistake. #cui
SO IDK HOW...
GAH.
Gotta find a way...
After today's paper, I was thinking, Oh man that's it, goodbye gpa > 3.5. See you next time...
Depressing and demoralizing!!!!
On monday, I have BIOCHEMISTRY and wednesday, MICROBIOLOGY.
Sigh, and Hari Raya's on TUESDAY.
TELL ME HOW TO STUDY HUH HUH HUH?!
why...
-end of exam rant-
it's 2.50am now.
Haha what on earth.
I just ranted about how i'm struggling with my exams when...
I just wasted a total of 3 hours playing the sims social on facebook, tweeting, tumblring and blogging.
Hate how much I contradict myself sometimes.
Oh well...
Old habits die hard.
Goodnight!
(LOL siao ding dong I just blogged goodnight to myself wahaha #fail)
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